The Arrivals pt. 10 (The New Worldly Order)

Imaam Ibn Baaz on suicide attacks

Speakers: Imaam 'Abdul-'Aziz bin' Abdillah bin Baaz Question:

What is the appeal to carry out suicide attacks in the midst of the Jews? Answer: I think, as we have indicated on several previous occasions, that it is not correct, because it is suicide.

Allah (Ta'al) said: "Do not kill yourselves."

(4:29)

Moreover, said the Prophet (Salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam): "Whoever commits suicide with something, will be punished with it until the Day of Resurrection." (1) A man must take care of his life. If the time comes to go out in the Jihad, he does it with the Muslims.

Should she fall, will leave rates and Allah. But with regard to blow up himself, among others, it is both wrong and illegal. The same applies to bury himself to death among them. The Palestinians' actions are wrong. They are not accurate. By contrast, they are obliged to call for Islam, study, guide and advise, but to act.

Source: Cassette tape "Aqwâl-ul-'Ulamâ 'fil-Jihad"

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Al-Bukhārī (5700) and Muslim (108).

The Funeral of Malcolm X

Malcom X Funeral Part 12

The number of mourners who came to the public viewing in Harlem's Unity Funeral Home from February 23 through February 26 was estimated to be between 14,000 and 30,000 The funeral of Malcolm X was held on February 27 at the Faith Temple, Church of God in Christ, in Harlem.

The Church was filled to capacity with more than 1,000 people. Loudspeakers were set up outside the Temple so the overflowing crowd could listen and a local television station broadcast the funeral live.

Among the civil rights leaders in attendance were John Lewis, Bayard Rustin, James Forman, James Farmer, Jesse Gray, and Andrew Young.Actor and activist Ossie Davis delivered the eulogy, describing Malcolm X as "our shining black prince".

There are those who will consider it their duty, as friends of the Negro people, to tell us to revile him, to flee, even from the presence of his memory, to save ourselves by writing him out of the history of our turbulent times. Many will ask what Harlem finds to honor in this stormy, controversial and bold young captain—and we will smile.

Many will say turn away—away from this man, for he is not a man but a demon, a monster, a subverter and an enemy of the black man—and we will smile. They will say that he is of hate—a fanatic, a racist—who can only bring evil to the cause for which you struggle! And we will answer and say to them: Did you ever talk to Brother Malcolm? Did you ever touch him, or have him smile at you? Did you ever really listen to him? Did he ever do a mean thing? Was he ever himself associated with violence or any public disturbance?

For if you did you would know him. And if you knew him you would know why we must honor him. Malcolm X was buried at Ferncliff Cemetery in Hartsdale, New York. At the gravesite after the ceremony, friends took the shovels away from the waiting gravediggers and completed the burial themselves. Actor and activist Ruby Dee (wife of Ossie Davis) and Juanita Poitier (wife of Sidney Poitier) established the Committee of Concerned Mothers to raise funds to buy a house and pay educational expenses for Malcolm X's family

This is Islam, not Terrorism

Islam has nothing to do with terrorists

Speakers: Imam Muhammad bin Salih bin 'Uthaymîn Allah (Ta'al) says:

"Say: Allah is witness between me and you that this Qur'an has been revealed to me that I have with it is to warn you and anyone who reaches it."

'(6:19)

This suggests that those who are not reached by the Qur'an, have not received the evidence set against itself. Nor has it brought to a tarnished the image of the Qur'an have the evidence laid against him. On the other hand he is not excused in the same manner as that which has not been reached by the Qur'an at all.

Anyone who has had an obscured view of the Qur'an, is obliged to investigate. On the other hand, perhaps he trusts the source that gave him this picture and therefore do not consider themselves to be in need of research.

Here is a question: Does Islam have reached the non-Muslim world in a way ickefördunklat? The answer is: Never. When some people are unwise takes hold of things into their own hands, eclipsed Islam in Westerners, as well as in ickevästerlänningars, eyes. With these people I mean those that underlie bursting attacks among people.

They say that this is a Jihad for Allah's cause. In fact, they have harmed Islam and the people had to flee from Islam even more. Muslims are hiding their faces in order not to be attributed to this false and terrible group. Islam has nothing to do with it. Islam has nothing to do with it.

After Jihad had been imposed, were the companions (radhiya Allahu 'anhum) never included among the infidels to kill them. The only exception was when they went into the Jihad leader during a single banner that besides, was capable of Jihad. But what concerns this terrorism, I swear by Allah that the only harm Muslims. I swear by Allah.

We never found any positive results from this. On the contrary. Religion's reputation deteriorates. If we stick to the wisdom and fear Allah, and corrects only for ourselves before everyone else, the results will be promising.

Source: Cassette tape "Sharh Usul-it-Tafsir"

Interview with rap artist turned Muslim - 2 Jul 09

WARNING for Rabbi Shmuly

This is very interesting because as you can see the article "Michael Jackson tapes reveal His Soul, Shapes adviser says" so it really comes to this "so-called" close friend "of Michael is one of them. And the Rabbi will not be a "close" friend of Michael ..

Without this you should have received money from Michael to charity and not used them for it, and more .. And how is it that this man comes out with a book now after 9 years as he claims Michael wanted out?

Now that Michael is dead! Do not go on this this seems to be another who wants use Michael's name and get money out of his death .. This one was just inside Michael's friendship circle for a short period .. So this seems like a foam fish .. And have also heard that this man was Michael ENEMY!

So we will really suit us here this seems to be a another Martin Blair .. which also Jew Uri Geller presented Michael to Blair ..

No further Michael had friends where everyone took their chance to get a share of his wealth.

Meddie.

Heil Michael Jackson! 2009 teaser!

Go to 1.o4 minutes in the video and listen.

Abute that video on You Tube.

This is written by the person who uploaded the video here below .. Very interesting. Should make a post tomorrow Inshallah on a group of Jews who call themselves Zionist who are the terrorists.

Meddie.

Youtube, I hope you can see past your biased assumption and prejudice and recognize that this is Michael Jacksons own view, you have no right to censor it.
Just as our dear messiah, Adolf Hitler said: Creative men and women of all nations, recognize your common foe!

Michael Jackson, one of the worlds most popular and known entertainers throughout the worlds history have recognized this international issue that the christian nations have faced since ancient time. Michael Jackson was obssessed about our dear Hitler, he had tons of nazi related books and movies, and spent alot of time reading about Adolf, he also collected Nazi medals, jewelry and paraphernalia

Michael Jackson was murdered. Those of you who remember, I posted a video with a description, just after his death, explain who had killed him and why. The outcome was that my account got suspended for three weeks.

It is clear to us that Michael Jackson sudden death was no accident, and Michael himself knew perfectly well that he would be killed, and by who. Even his sister, La Toya, sees the truth.Michael Jackson lived his whole life surrounded by zionist-jews. They would set him up in compromising positions, knowing his penchant for pre-pubescent boys and girls, have a series of families of "victims" sue him, then portray him in the controlled media as a serial pedophile thus denying him any credible defense.

Of course, the zionist, even with all the negative publicity, could find families willing to keep sending the children over, force him to settle the lawsuits, and then lend him the money to pay them off, at interest, all on the security of his once considerable earning power.

This process of stealing his money went on for years, until there was nothing left to steal. They then came up with the idea of having the frail Jackson pay off the 500 million dollars he owed them all at once with a huge concert tour, one that neither they nor Jackson thought he could physically survive. If he didn't do it, they would seize the 350 million dollars in assets that he still controlled and ruin him. Essentially, they decided to go for the age-old Talmud solution, the pound of flesh. Jackson would pay them off with his life.

Due to his many health problems, it became impossible to insure Jackson for the tour, particularly when the financers got greedy and vastly extended the tour, so the promoters had to "self-insure", meaning they would take all the risk if Jackson, in fact, couldn't finish the tour. As the promoters knew he wouldn't be able to survive the tour, this was unacceptable, and Jackson became more valuable dead than alive.

Alive, he would just create more debt to be shared amongst many creditors, with no more assets to pay them off. Dead before the tour, the banksters could divvy up his tangible assets and use his preexisting life insurance policy to cover the rest.I think we can assume that Jackson's increasing connections to the Muslim Middle East, and his conversion to Islam - after being forced to pick a surrogate Jewish mother for his children - was partly an attempt to escape the shysters. They settled for complete control of his estate after his death through his Jewish children.

The greed of the zionist extended the tour to the point where it was uninsurable. Either the stress of the impossible tour killed him, or they arranged for him to be given a "hot shot" - a mix of his drug of choice with a heart-attack inducing, and completely undetectable, potassium chloride - to finish him off. (note how the mainstream press is suddenly filled with stories of his drug addictions, very typical)

On behalf of the national socalism movement, R.I.P, and thanks for the contribution.

Michael Jackson tapes reveal his soul, former adviser says

LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) -- Michael Jackson feared his father so much he would faint or vomit sometimes when his father entered the room -- even when the pop singer was an adult, according to a book written by a former Jackson confidant.

Rabbi Shmuley Boteach, Michael Jackson's confidant, sat down with the King of Pop and taped 30 hours of interviews.

"The Michael Jackson Tapes" includes Jackson talking about his fear of growing old, his relationship with children, his friendships with Madonna and Brooke Shields, and his remarkable shyness around people that made his surround himself with mannequins.
Jackson opened up to Rabbi Shmuley Boteach for 30 hours of interviews, which were taped nine years ago and intended for a book Jackson wanted written, Boteach said.
"He was trying to reclaim his life," Boteach said Friday in an NBC "Today Show" interview.
Jackson, who died on June 25 of what the coroner found to be a deadly combination of drugs, "lost the will to live, I think he was just going through the motions of life toward the end," Boteach told NBC.
CNN has not independently confirmed Jackson's quotes in the book, but Boteach was known to be a spiritual adviser to Jackson for several years beginning about 1999.
Ken Sunshine, spokesman for the family, including the singer's father, Joe, issued a statement on the book. "We are not going to dignify this with a comment," he said.
The book was not published during Jackson's lifetime because of the pop star's child molestation trial, which ended with an acquittal in 2005, the author said. The author said Jackson's arrest ended any interest in a book about him.
"I don't want to grow old," Jackson is quoted as saying in one interview with Boteach.
"When the body breaks down and you start to wrinkle, I think it's so bad," Jackson said.

Jackson talked to Boteach about why he was drawn to children, especially those who were sick.

"I love them. I love them," he said.
Helping children enjoy their childhood is his mission, Jackson said.
"I feel that this is something really, really in my heart that I am supposed to do, and I feel so loved by giving my love, and I know that's what they need," he said.
Jackson said that while adults "appreciate me artistically as a singer and a songwriter and a dancer and a performer," children "just want to have some fun and to give love and have love and they just want to be loved and held."

Boteach, in an interview about two years before Jackson's November 2003 arrest, asked Jackson about the young cancer patient who would later become his main accuser.

"He's special," Jackson said.
Boteach asked Jackson whether by speaking to people like the boy "part of the pain goes away for them."

"Absolutely," Jackson said. "Because every time I talk to him he is in better spirits. When I spoke to him last night he said, 'I need you. When are you coming home?' I said, 'I don't know.' He said, 'I need you, Michael.' Then he calls me 'Dad.'"

Michael Jackson's taped statements about his father's treatment of him as a child echoed what he has said previously.

"He was rough, the way he would beat you, you know, was hard," Jackson said. "He would make you strip nude first. He would oil you down. It would be a whole ritual. He would oil you down so when the flip of an ironing cord hit you, you know, and, it was just like me dying, and you had whips all over your face, your back, everywhere. And I always hear my mother like, 'No, Joe, you're gonna kill him. You're gonna kill him. No.' And I would just give up, like there was nothing I could do. And I hated him for it. Hated him."

Joe Jackson has denied physically abusing his son. "Now, Michael was never beaten by me, I've never beaten at all," he told CNN's Larry King in July. He did suggest he used spankings for disciplining his children.

Another Michael Jackson quote from the book alleged emotional abuse by Joe Jackson:

"God bless my father because he did some wonderful things and he was brilliant, he was a genius, but one day he said, 'If you guys ever stop singing I will drop you like a hot potato.' It hurt me. You would think he would think, 'These kids have a heart and feelings.' Wouldn't he think that would hurt us? If I said something like that to Prince and Paris, that would hurt. You don't say something like that to children and I never forgot it. It affects my relationship with him today."

Jackson told Boteach he was still "scared of my father to this day."
"My father walked in the room -- and God knows I am telling the truth -- I have fainted in his presence many times. I have fainted once to be honest. I have thrown up in his presence because when he comes in the room and this aura comes and my stomach starts hurting and I know I am in trouble. He is so different now. Time and age has changed him and he sees his grandchildren and he wants to be a better father. It is almost like the ship has sailed its course, and it is so hard for me to accept this other guy that is not the guy I was raised with. I just wished he had learned that earlier."

In the excerpts provided to CNN by the book's publisher, there were no quotes from Jackson discussing his drug use, but Boteach does write about what he saw during the several years he was Jackson's spiritual adviser, starting in 1999.
While Boteach said he never personally saw Jackson use drugs, he did suspect it. "In the time that I knew him, he always seemed intent on me having a positive view of him and nothing untoward was ever done in my presence," he wrote.
While their close relationship ended around the time of the molestation charges, Boteach said Jackson's parents reached out to him later for help in convincing him to enter drug rehab.

"Perhaps I could inspire Michael to make that decision, and his parents thought I could at least help," Boteach said. "But I knew they were wrong. Michael had long since ceased taking my counsel. He found my advice too demanding. I was an irritant and was treated as such."

He said he told Joe and Katherine Jackson that "it was imperative for them to save their son's life by becoming available parents in his greatest hour of need."
Sometimes those closest to Jackson were not people -- but mannequins, the book said. Jackson said he was so shy at times he surrounded himself with dummies.
"Because I felt I needed people, someone, and I didn't have," he said. "I was too shy to be around real people."

Boteach, in the NBC interview Friday, said it made his skin crawl to hear that.
"His celebrity had created a degree of isolation where he could not simply feel comfortable around other people," Boteach said. "He thought that everybody wanted something from him. He felt that he was trapped in this cocoon of fame and that there was some exploitative relationship with virtually everyone that he met."

The book does offer insight into Jackson's dating of celebrity women, including actress Brooke Shields.

"That was one of the loves of my life," Jackson said. "I just wished she loved me as much as I loved her, you know."

He told Boteach one problem he had with women was their jealousy of his fame.
"They admire you and know you're wonderful and great, but just they're jealous because they wish they were in your place, with they were in your shoes. And 'M' is one of them -- Madonna. Hate to say that on tape."

CNN asked Madonna's publicist Liz Rosenberg for a response:
"Madonna was very fond of Michael Jackson (as she clearly expressed in her tribute to him at the VMA's) and I doubt anything in the book will change her mind," Rosenberg said.

from:http://www.cnn.com/2009/SHOWBIZ/Music/09/25/michael.jackson.tapes/index.html?iref=newssearch

Malcolm X's Death (Spike Lee's Most Powerful Scene)

Malcom X Death: Assassination Part 11.

On February 21, 1965, in Manhattan's Audubon Ballroom, Malcolm X began to speak to a meeting of the Organization of Afro-American Unity when a disturbance broke out in the crowd of 400. A man yelled, "Nigger! Get your hand outta my pocket!" As Malcolm X and his bodyguards moved to quiet the disturbance a man rushed forward and shot him in the chest with a sawed-off shotgun. Two other men charged the stage and fired handguns, hitting him 16 times. Angry onlookers caught and beat one of the assassins as the others fled the ballroom. Malcolm X was pronounced dead at 3:30 p.m., shortly after he arrived at Columbia Presbyterian Hospital.

Talmadge Hayer, a Black Muslim also known as Thomas Hagan, was arrested on the scene.Eyewitnesses identified two more suspects, Norman 3X Butler and Thomas 15X Johnson, also members of the Nation of Islam. All three were charged in the case. At first Hayer denied involvement, but during the trial he confessed to having fired shots at Malcolm X. He testified that Butler and Johnson were not present and were not involved in the assassination, but he declined to name the men who had joined him in the shooting. All three men were convicted.

Butler, now known as Muhammad Abdul Aziz, was paroled in 1985. He became the head of the Nation of Islam's Harlem mosque in New York in 1998. He continues to maintain his innocence Johnson, now known as Khalil Islam, was released from prison in 1987. During his time in prison, he rejected the teachings of the Nation of Islam and converted to Sunni Islam. He, too, maintains his innocence. Hayer, now known as Mujahid Halim, was paroled in 1993.

The Arrivals pt. 9 (Hashemsfilms)

Or do you eat out of ours brother's dead flesh?

I am so surprised at some things .. I must write to me a bit. This is about me and my grief for Michael, who alhmdulillah now gone that way but I will always be upset and saddened by other people against convicting him when it is not at all see who Michael was as a person but only his artistry and believe in everything the press writes about him ..

When I tell someone that I took Michael's death as hard as people think immediately that I mourn his music and artistry, and some sisters say: But it's not good to you mourned the .. without t even think about or wonder why I mourned him ..

Then I say always: I do not mourn him as an artist but for his suffering in this Dunya to the people and the media destroyed him with all these accusations and lies. Their SLANDEROUS and gossip ..

But people do not understand this .. I know a close friend of mine she think really hard on the media have written about him in their lies to make money .. Do you not see how they wrote badly about him when he was alive and when he died, would elevate him to make money? Do you not see what the media do?

Michael had a white heart and wished well .. And he was so good and kind as this utilized many unfortunately even in his own family .. I just hope that Allah's mercy reached him before he died that I think it did. Many Muslims say that his niet in his heart was haram when he died of his concerts ..

But here, I believe many are wrong .. I think he had remorse in his heart and did not want to do this and that Allah swa saw it and therefore took him home before he did these concerts, and rescued from Michael in it, Alhmdulillah.

But what is surprising is that people and some Muslims would rather see the bad in a man than good. But poor those who are looking for other errors.

It also warns us of Allah in the Qur'an:

[104:1] ILL WILL go on trying to find fault with the [second] and slander them!

So please stop trying to find fault with this poor man and let him rest in peace now that he is in the hands of Allah swa. And no one but Allah swa can know his niet so stop talking about it!

Try to see the good more than bad! In this one, which also can be a brother in Islam. Do you not see that his life was a test for him and us Muslims? What do we have the right to judge and slander him as I see that most of them do.

Fear Allah swa more than that!

Or do you eat out of ours brother's dead flesh?

Peace!

Meddie.

TerrorISM not from ISLAM

Islam condemns terrorism

Speakers' Allâmah Salih bin Muhammad al-Luhaydân

PRAISE and price to be whatever Allah permits.

Praise and prize will Allah with whose godheter all prosperity fulfilled. Praise and prize will Allah with whose decisions and rule everything done. In a sea of contemporary events, a field of tumultuous views and ways of thinking and about what has happened in the USA, more and more and more questions were asked regarding Islam's view of similar documents. There is no doubt that Islam Sharî'ah is complete and perfect.

It covers everything. Thus there is solution to all the ambiguities. Thus clarifying sentences for all accidents. A man never happen in an accident, but that Islam Sharî'ah treat her case and explain its extinction. This includes such emerging events. Many people have asked how Islam Sharî'ah look at these documents. Islam allows Sharî'ah similar documents?

Accepted similar acts of Islamic scholars? Clarifies Islam's views on these documents correctly? Islamic scholars are obliged to talk about [these] misdeeds. They are required to show what Islam Sharî'ah think and think about [these] disasters affecting Muslims and non Muslims. Surely Allah is everything along (djalla wa 'ala) decision and rule.

Nevertheless, treating Islam Sharî'ah all events. Allah (djalla wa 'ala) is the wisest of judges and the Most Merciful of the merciful. He is fair. Allah Himself has forbidden any injustice in the same way that He has forbidden that His creatures in between.

It has been authentically reported that the Prophet (Salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam) told us that his Lord (djalla wa' ala) had said:

"My servants! I have forbidden Myself injustice as I have forbidden it among you, was not unjust. "

(1) It belongs to the injustice to embark on a human being and killing an innocent. The Prophet (Salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam) is mercy, tenderness and goodness prophet. He is not just sent to all mankind, but also to the jinn and humans. Before he sent off his troops in the battalion, battle and Jihad, he would always say to them:

"Kill no children, women, elderly, or worshipers of their hermit huts."

(2) So do not allow Islam to someone other than the killing, fighting and attacking Muslims killed. These atrocities did not differ between infants, women, elderly, sick and healthy people. The affects estate and their owners. These documents are among the most serious atrocities and dangerous sins. According to Islam Sharî'ah hear these documents to the spread of depravity on earth and lay waste to standing crops and fruit. This is something Islam forbids. Allah and His Messenger (Salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam) has forbidden it. When the Prophet (Salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam) saw a woman killed in combat, he said: "She would not be killed."

(3) That is to say that it was absolutely forbidden to kill her. Based on what I've seen of the attacks carried out in these buildings, considers Islam that these offenders are among the biggest culprits and worst merchants. Anyone who thinks that one of Islam's scholars, who knows Sharî'ahns goals and are aware of the Qur'an and the Prophet (Salla Allahu 'alayhi wa sallam) intentions, acceptance of these atrocities, thinking only evil thoughts. It is not a Muslim to rejoice in his enemy's misfortune, even if he has been oppressed. Some unfairness is unacceptable.

To nurture individual hostility towards anyone who does not deserve to be punished, is an illegal and horrible acting. What are we to say if this happened? How can you say that Muslims accept the like? Whatever the explanations they justify their atrocities with, they will either be accepted or allowed by Islamic wave. Allah (djalla wa 'ala) says in the Noble Qur'an when He speaks to Muslims: "Believers! Stand firm on Allah's side as witnesses for law and justice and let not prejudice against a people convince you that deviate from the path of justice. Is right - it is closest to piety, Allah is well informed about what you do. "

(5:8)

The heavens and the earth was created with justice. Justice approves wave never a mass murder. Similar action can only end up in the injustice and the sins pan. There is a huge sin to kill an innocent person. What are we to say about a massacre? What are we to say about the murder of infants, children and pregnant women?

These frightening visions that are the result of this misdeed, not accepted by a rational Muslim. These documents should not be taken as a model, even if they come from an "Islamist" in an Islamic country.

The point is in the learned pronouncements. The point is what Islam says about Sharî'ah these serious atrocities. When Saudi Arabia considered the question about aircraft hijackings before a Saudi plane had been hijacked, it was decided that the country learned hijacking are prohibited regardless of whether passengers are Muslims or not. They felt that injustice is prohibited.

They believed that it is one of the biggest sins in the world to pick on innocent people and terrorize them. Thus, it is not surprising that Saudi Arabia condemns similar issues and proclaim that they are not pleased by them or their practitioners. Saudi Arabia is an Islamic kingdom, and praise and price to be Allah. Rightly guided by the Islamic regime and Sharî'ah.

The basis for its action and order are not contradictory to Islam. If it then condemn similar acts, they do so along its religion and the Islamic position. This country is the two Holy Mosque of the country. In this country the message sent down.

Source: Fatawa al-A'immah fi an-Nawâzil al-Mudlahimmah, pp. 57-64

American soldier "I killed innocent people".

LATER DEVELOPMENTS part 2

LATER DEVELOPMENTS.
A DEBATE BETWEEN MASSEY AND CRITIC RON HARRIS

NOUVEL OBSERVATEUR

JEAN-PAUL MARI, LE NOUVEL OBSERVATEUR, FRANCE - In a just-published book, Master-Sergeant Jimmy Massey tells about his mission to recruit for, then fight in, the war in Iraq. He tells why he killed. And cracked. Jimmy Massey is 34 years old. He's originally a Texas boy, raised as a good Southern Baptist who loves squirrel hunting with his air rifle.

After 12 years in the Marines, Jim is a broken man, a veteran afflicted with post-traumatic stress syndrome, a depressive hooked on his medications, haunted by the nightmare images in which he massacres innocent civilians, scenes experienced in Iraq when he was nothing but a killing machine.

Jim has cracked, has withdrawn from the service for medical reasons, and has written a raw and brutal book. . . . The army denies the facts and his former comrades have insulted, rejected, and threatened him.

An extract:
JIMMY MASSEY - We had reached the military site Al-Rashid on an overcast, dark and sinister day. . . . When we stopped, I saw ten Iraqis, about 150 yards away. They were under forty years old, clean and dressed in the traditional white garment. They stayed on the side of the road waving signs and screaming anti-American slogans. . . .

That's when I heard a shot pass just over our heads, from right to left. I ran into the middle of the street to see what was happening. I had barely rejoined Schutz when my guys unloaded their weapons on the demonstrators. It only took me three seconds to take aim. I aimed my sights on the center of a demonstrator's body. I breathed in deeply and, as I exhaled, I gently opened my right eye and fired. I watched the bullets hit the demonstrator right in the middle of his chest. My Marines barked: "Come on, little girls! You wanna fight?"

I acquired a new target right away, a demonstrator on all fours who was trying to run away as fast as possible. I quickly aimed for the head; I breathed in deeply, breathed out, and I fired again. One head: boom! Another: boom! The center of a mass in the bull's eye: boom! Another: boom! I kept on until the moment when I saw no more movement from the demonstrators. There was no answering fire. I must have fired at least a dozen times. It all lasted no longer than two and a half minutes.

I know that they had also been shot in the back; some of them were crawling and their white clothes turned red. The M-16's 5.56 is a nasty bullet: it doesn't kill all at once. For example, it can enter the chest and come out at the knee, tearing all the internal organs on the way through. My guys were jumping around in every direction.

Taylor and Gaumont hollered: "Come back, babies!" "They don't know how to fight, those cocksuckers! Fucking cowards!"

They slapped one another on the back, exchanging "Good job!," but they were frustrated because some demonstrators had succeeded in getting away. I wanted to keep on firing, I kept telling myself: "Good God, there must be more of them." It was like eating the first spoonful of your favorite ice cream. You want more. . . .

Those demonstrators were the first people I killed. . . .

That had a hell of an effect on me. What an adrenaline, rush, fuck! Fear becomes a motor. It pushes you. It had more of an impact on me than the best grass I ever smoked. It was as though all those I had ever hated, all the anger that was accumulated in me was there in that being; you feel like you're absorbing life like a cannibal.

You're really happy with yourself; you feel really powerful and everything becomes clear. You reach nirvana, like a white luminous space. But after a few hours, you come down from nirvana and find yourself in dark waters; you swim in a pool of mud and the only way to go back to that other feeling is to kill again. . . .

[Translated by Truth Out]

ST LOUIS POST DISPATCH

RON HARRIS ST LOUIS POST-DISPATCH -

For more than a year, former Marine Staff Sgt. Jimmy Massey has been telling anybody who will listen about the atrocities that he and other Marines committed in Iraq. In scores of newspaper, magazine and broadcast stories, at a Canadian immigration hearing and in numerous speeches across the country, Massey has told how he and other Marines recklessly, sometimes intentionally, killed dozens of innocent Iraqi civilians. . .

News organizations worldwide published or broadcast Massey's claims without any corroboration and in most cases without investigation. Outside of the Marines, almost no one has seriously questioned whether Massey, a 12-year veteran who was honorably discharged, was telling the truth.
He wasn't.

Each of his claims is either demonstrably false or exaggerated - according to his fellow Marines, Massey's own admissions, and the five journalists who were embedded with Massey's unit, including a reporter and photographer from the Post-Dispatch and reporters from The Associated Press and The Wall Street Journal. . .

[He] backtracked from allegations he made in a May 2004 radio interview and elsewhere that he had seen a tractor-trailer filled with the bodies of Iraqi civilians when Marines entered an Iraqi military prison outside Baghdad. He said the Iraqis had been killed by American artillery. He told listeners that the scene was so bad "that the plasma from the body and skin was decomposing and literally oozing out of the crevices of the tractor-trailer bed."

He repeated the story in the Post-Dispatch interview. But when told that the newspaper's photographs and eyewitness reports had identified the trailer contents as all men, mostly in uniform, Massey admitted that he had never seen the bodies. Instead, he said, he received his information from "intelligence reports." When asked if those reports were official documents, he answered, "No, that's what the other Marines told me.". . .

He almost always told his audiences and interviewers of an event he said he'd never forget: Marines in his unit shooting four civilian Iraqis in red Kia automobile. In some accounts, Massey said Marines fired at the vehicle after it failed to stop at a checkpoint. In another version, he said the Marines stormed the car.

Sometimes he said three of the men were killed immediately while the fourth was wounded and covered in blood; sometimes he said the fourth man was "miraculously unscathed."

Sometimes he said the Marines left the three men on the side of the road to die without medical treatment while the fourth man exclaimed: "Why did you shoot my brother?" In other versions, he said the man made the statement as medical personnel were attempting to treat the three other men, or as the survivor sat near the car, or to Massey personally.

There is no evidence that any of the versions occurred.
In a speech in Syracuse in March, the Post Standard newspaper quoted him as saying, "The reason the Marines teach you discipline . . . is so that you can confront the enemy and kill him. . . . Or so you can put a bullet into a 6-year-old, which is what I did. "

In the interview with the Post-Dispatch, Massey said he never personally had shot a child.

"I meant that's what my unit did," he said.
He could not provide details.
Nor could he name any Marine who could corroborate any of his stories.
"Admitting guilt is a hard thing to do," he said.

COUNTERPUNCH

STAN GOFF, COUNTERPUNCH - On April 9, 2003, Ron Harris, a St. Louis Post Dispatch writer embedded with Lima Company, 3rd Battalion, 7th Marines, posted a story about Resheed, an Iraqi military base near Baghdad, wherein he described a dramatic daylong battle which included RPGs hidden away in civilian clothes and guerillas "hiding behind civilians."

The battle, as the story turned out, was the apologetic context for the description of Marines firing into a car full of civilians, wounding all of them. Quoting the battalion commander, Lieutenant Colonel Belcher, Harris wrote, "You're seeing drive-by shootings, suicide bomb attempts, and they're even trying to use civilians as shields."

Researching other stories done by Harris over 2003 and 2004, the guerrillas hiding behind civilians becomes a recurrent topic. He was also as enamored of florid prose as Shacochis. That's what happens when you are writing about those you love.

The problem was, according to former Marine Staff Sergeant Jimmy Massey, who was interviewed at the Boston Veterans for Peace Convention in 2004, Harris' description was heavily embellished. Contact that day was thin and sporadic.

"As his Marine unit entered Iraq it came upon empty Iraqi military bases with weapons lying on the road. 'We shot it up with everything we had, and we were laughing and having a good time. The Iraqis let us in the country; we didn't take it.'

"Upon entering Baghdad his unit came upon an unarmed pro-Saddam demonstration. His unit killed several of the demonstrators. 'I knew that we caused the insurgency to be pissed off because they had witnessed us executing innocent civilians.' Massey told us how the U.S.-embedded reporter, Ron Harris, from the St. Louis Post-Dispatch wrote that there was a ferocious battle between his unit and the Iraqi military, but it never happened. The reporter was writing what the Marines wanted him to write.". . .

Jimmy Massey didn't meet Harris that day, or ever, because while Harris was embedded with Lima Company 3/7, Jimmy was assigned to Weapons Company. In fact, Ron Harris has never so much as called Jimmy Massey on the telephone or attempted to send Jimmy Massey an email until he called several weeks ago to tell Jimmy to retract all his claims or be "exposed."

The reason I bring that up is that two days ago, Harris published an ambush piece on Jimmy Massey, a year and a half after Massey dissed Harris on his Resheed battle story, and just one month after the release of Massey's devastating book, Kill Kill Kill, relating his experiences in Iraq, and naming names. . .

Harris hasn't read the book nor has he called Jimmy Massey except once to demand he retract his claims, but that didn't deter him from writing his hit-piece. . .

Harris goes on . . . to claim that Massey said he had personally killed a 6-year-old. But Massey says that this was a misquote that grew legs. There was a child among the dead when demonstrators were shot in Resheed. The original statement was "I brought these series of events up through the chain of command. Each time I was told they were terrorists, or they were insurgents.

My question to the marine corps at that point became, how was a 6-year-old child with a bullet hole in its head a terrorist or insurgent?" Reads a bit differently that Harris' smear-job, doesn't it?. . .

Harris says, "While touring with Sheehan in Montgomery, Ala., he told of seeing the girl's body." Sheehan did not join that leg of the three-bus tour until Atlanta. She was never in Montgomery. I just got an email from Cindy confirming that. No big deal in most circumstances. Just a minor error. But since what is good for the Massey-goose is examination with an electron microscope, let's just say its sauce for the Post-Dispatch's embedded-gander.

http://prorev.com/2005/11/emendation.htm

JIMMY MASSEY, COUNTERPUNCH - Major newspapers and media outlets published my story. Neither the Marine Corps nor any of my platoon members filed any charges against me as a result of my claims in over 20 months. Nor did they attempt any defamation campaign to counteract my allegations that the large numbers of civilians killed in the invasion, as a result of failed strategies, fomented anti-American sentiment, and fueled the insurgency.

Until Saturday.
Quantico Marine Base Public Affairs Officer Lt. Col. Richard Long, former director of Public Affairs and the embedded reporter program in Iraq, began circulating an article Monday published in the St. Louis Post Dispatch, Saturday, November 5, by former embedded reporter Ron Harris, accusing me of lying. Harris not only was not assigned to my Weapon's Company, (he was with Lima), and was not present for any of the incidents he disputes, but before last week, had not spoken with me once since my return.

On Monday, Harris appeared on CNN's "American Morning," in an unrebutted interview stating, "not only did I not see any protesters, nobody saw any protesters," and "nobody ever interviewed the Marines, which I did all of." Nobody ever checked his story. . .

Harris' apparent contempt for me seems to stem from the fact that one and a half years ago, I exposed him for having greatly embellished an incident at Rasheed Military complex in his April 9, 2003, article in the St. Louis Post Dispatch In the article, Harris described a dramatic, daylong battle glorifying heroic deeds and describing guerillas "hiding behind civilians."

Speaking at the Boston Veterans for Peace Convention in 2004, I said Harris had greatly exaggerated the combat in what was subsequently hailed as an example of American military prowess.

I confessed publicly that"contact that day was thin and sporadic," and that "as my unit entered Iraq it came upon empty Iraqi military bases with weapons lying on the road." I noted that We shot it up with everything we had, and we were laughing and having a good time. The Iraqis let us in the country; we didn't take it.'

It is ironic that Ron Harris should accuse others of bad reporting. It was Ron Harris himself that misquoted me as having mentioned a 4 year old with a bullet in her head, and then conveniently used his own misquote to accuse me of lying.

Simply doing a web search for "Jimmy Massey" and "4 year old," you will find that the only source even suggesting that I knew of an incident when Marines had killed the child is Harris' own story. My only related quote had been "Lima Company was involved in a shooting at a checkpoint.

My platoon was ordered to another area before the victims were removed from the car. The other Marines told me that a 4-year-old girl had been killed."

A veteran speaks "I KILLED INNOCENT PEOPLE"

A veteran speaks
"I KILLED INNOCENT PEOPLE FOR OUR GOVERNMENT"

Paul Rockwell

For nearly 12 years, Staff Sergeant Jimmy Massey was a hard-core, some say "gung-ho," Marine. For three years he trained fellow Marines in one of the most grueling indoctrination rituals in military life -- Marine boot camp. The Iraqi war changed Massey. The brutality, the sheer carnage of the U.S. invasion, touched his conscience and transformed him forever. He was honorably discharged last December 31 and is now back in his hometown, Waynsville, North Carolina. When I talked with Sergeant Massey last week, he expressed his remorse at the civilian loss of life in incidents in which he himself was involved.

Paul Rockwell: You spent 12 years in the Marines. When were you sent to Iraq?
Sgt. Massey: I went to Kuwait around January 17th. I was in Iraq from the get-go. And I was involved in the initial invasion.
Paul Rockwell: What does the public need to know about your experiences as a Marine?
Sgt. Massey: The cause of the Iraqi revolt against the American occupation. What they need to know is we killed a lot of innocent people. I think at first the Iraqis had the understanding that casualties are a part of war. But over the course of time, the occupation hurt the Iraqis. And I didn't see any humanitarian support.

Paul Rockwell: What experiences turned you against the war and made you leave the Marines?

Sgt. Massey: I was in charge of a platoon that consists of machine gunners and missile men. Our job was to go into certain areas of the towns and secure the roadways.

There was this one particular incident -- and there's many more -- the one that really pushed me over the edge. It involved a car with Iraqi civilians. From all the intelligence reports we were getting, the cars were loaded down with suicide bombs or material. That's the rhetoric we received from intelligence. They came upon our checkpoint. We fired some warning shots. They didn't slow down. So we lit them up.

Paul Rockwell: Lit up? You mean you fired machine guns?
Sgt. Massey: Right. Every car that we lit up we were expecting ammunition to go off. But we never heard any. Well this particular vehicle we didn't destroy completely, and one gentleman looked up at me and said: 'Why did you kill my brother? We didn't do anything wrong.' That hit me like a ton of bricks.
Paul Rockwell: He spoke English?

Sgt. Massey: Oh, yeah.

Paul Rockwell: Baghdad was being bombed. The civilians were trying to get out, right?

Sgt. Massey: Yes. They received pamphlets, propaganda we dropped on them. It said 'Just throw up your hands, lay down weapons.' That's what they were doing, but we were still lighting them up. They weren't in uniform. We never found any weapons.

Paul Rockwell: You got to see the bodies and casualties?
Sgt. Massey: Yea, first hand. I helped throw them in a ditch.
Paul Rockwell: Over what period did all this take place?
Sgt. Massey: During the invasion of Baghdad.

Paul Rockwell: How many times were you involved in check-point "light-ups"?
Sgt. Massey: Five times.

"We Lit Him Up Pretty Good"

There was Rekha. The gentleman was driving a stolen work utility van. He didn't stop. With us being trigger happy, we didn't really give this guy much of a chance. We lit him up pretty good. Then we inspected the back of the van. We found nothing. No explosives.

Paul Rockwell: The reports said the cars were loaded with explosives. In all the incidents did you find that to be the case?

Sgt. Massey: Never. Not once. There were no secondary explosions. As a matter of fact, we lit up a rally.

Paul Rockwell: A demonstration? WhereSgt. Massey: On the outskirts of Baghdad. Near a military compound. There were demonstrators at the end of the street. They were young and they had no weapons.

And when we rolled onto the scene, there was already a tank that was parked on the side of the road. If the Iraqis wanted to do something, they could have blown up the tank. But they didn't. They were only holding a demonstration.

Down at the end of the road, we saw some RPGs (rocket--propelled grenades) lined up against the wall. That put us at ease because we thought: 'Wow, if they were going to blow us up, they would have done it.'
Paul Rockwell: Were the protest signs in English or Arabic?
Sgt. Massey: Both.

Paul Rockwell: Who gave the order to wipe the demonstrators out?
Sgt. Massey: Higher Command. We were told to be on the lookout for civilians because a lot of the Fedayeen and the Republican Guards had tossed away uniforms and put on civilian clothes and were mounting terrorist attacks on American soldiers.

The intelligence reports that were given to us were basically known by every member of the chain of command.

The rank structure that was implemented in Iraq by the chain of command was evident to every Marine in Iraq. The order to shoot the demonstrators, I believe, came from senior government officials including intelligence communities within the military and the U.S. government?

Paul Rockwell: What kind of firepower was employed?
Sgt. Massey: M-16s, 50-cal.machine guns.

Paul Rockwell: You fired into six or ten kids? Were they all taken out?
Sgt. Massey: Oh, yeah. Well, I had a 'mercy' on one guy. When we rolled up, he was hiding behind a concrete pillar. I saw him and raised my weapon up, and he put up his hands. He ran off.

I told everybody 'Don't shoot.' Half of his foot was trailing behind him. So he was running with half of his foot cut off.

Paul Rockwell: After you lit up the demonstration, how long before the next incident?

Sgt. Massey: Probably about one or two hours. This is another thing, too. I am so glad I am talking with you, because I suppressed all of this.

Paul Rockwell: Well I appreciate you giving me the information, as hard as it must be to recall the painful details.

Sgt. Massey: That's all right. It's kind of therapy for me. Because it's something that I had repressed for a long time.
Paul Rockwell: And the incident?

Sgt. Massey: There was an incident with one of the cars. We shot an individual with his hands up. He got out of the car. He was badly shot. We lit him up. I don't know who started shooting first. One of the Marines came running over to where we were and said: 'You all just shot a guy with his hands up.' Man, I forgot about this.

Depleted Uranium and Cluster Bombs
Paul Rockwell: You mention missiles and machine guns. What can you tell me about cluster bombs, or depleted uranium?

Sgt. Massey: Depleted uranium. I know what it does. It's basically like leaving plutonium rods around. I'm 32 years old. I have eighty-percent of my lung capacity. I ache all the time. I don't feel like a healthy 32-year old.
Paul Rockwell: Were you in the vicinity of of depleted uranium?

Sgt. Massey: Oh, yeah. It's everywhere. DU is everywhere on the battlefield. If you hit a tank, there's dust.

Paul Rockwell: Did you breath any dust?
Sgt. Massey: Yeah.
Paul Rockwell: And if DU is affecting you or our troops, it's impacting Iraqi civilians.

Sgt. Massey: Oh, yeah. They got a big wasteland problem.
Paul Rockwell: Do Marines have any precautions about dealing with DU?
Sgt. Massey: Not that I know of. Well, if a tank gets hit, crews are detained for a little while to make sure there are no signs or symptoms. American tanks have depleted uranium on the sides, and the projectiles have DU in them. If an enemy vehicle gets hit, the area gets contaminated.

Dead rounds are in the ground. The civilian populace is just now starting to learn about it. Hell, I didn't even know about DU until two years ago. You know how I found out about it? I read an article in Rolling Stones magazine. I just started inquiring about it, and I said 'Holy shit!'

Paul Rockwell: Cluster bombs are also controversial. U.N. commissions have called for a ban. Were you acquainted with cluster bombs?
Sgt. Massey: I had one of my Marines in my battalion who lost his leg from a cluster bomb.

Paul Rockwell: What happened?
Sgt. Massey: He stepped on it. We didn't get to training about clusters until about a month before I left.
Paul Rockwell: What kind of training?

Sgt. Massey: They told us what they looked like, and not to step on them.
Paul Rockwell: Were you in any areas where they were dropped?
Sgt. Massey: Oh yeah. They were everywhere.
Paul Rockwell: Dropped from the air?

Sgt. Massey: From the air as well as artillery.
Paul Rockwell: Are they dropped far away from cities, or inside the cities?
Sgt. Massey: They are used everywhere. Now if you talked to a Marine artillery officer, he would give you the runaround, the politically correct answer. But for an average grunt, they're everywhere.

Paul Rockwell: Including inside the towns and cities?
Sgt. Massey: Yes, if you were going into a city, you knew there were going to be cluster bombs.

Paul Rockwell: Cluster bombs are anti-personnel weapons. They are not precise. They don't injure buildings, or hurt tanks. Only people and living things. There are a lot of undetonated duds and they go off after the battles are over.
Sgt. Massey: Once the round leaves the tube, the cluster bomb has a mind of its own. There's always human error. I'm going to tell you. The armed forces are in a tight spot over there. It's starting to leak out about the civilian casualties that are taking place. The Iraqis know. I keep hearing reports from my Marine buddies inside that there were 200-something civilians killed in Fallujah. The military is scrambling right now to keep the raps on that. My understanding is Fallujah is just littered with civilian bodies.
Embedded Reporters

Paul Rockwell: How are the embedded reporters responding?
Sgt. Massey: I had embedded reporters in my unit, not my platoon. One we had was a South African reporter. He was scared shitless. We had an incident where one of them wanted to go home.
Paul Rockwell: Why?

Sgt. Massey: It was when we started going into Baghdad. When he started seeing the civilian casualties, he started wigging out a little bit. It didn't start until we got on the outskirts of Baghdad and started taking civilian casualties.

"I Killed Innocent People For Our Government"

Paul Rockwell: I would like to go back to the first incident, when the survivor asked why did you kill his brother. Was that the incident that pushed you over the edge, as you put it?

Sgt. Massey: Oh, yeah. Later on I found out that was a typical day. I talked with my commanding officer after the incident. He came up to me and says: 'Are you o.k?' I said: 'No, today is not a good day.

We killed a bunch of civilians.' He goes: 'No, today was a good day.' And when he said that, I said 'oh, my goodness, what the hell am I into?'

Paul Rockwell: Your feelings changed during the invasion. What was your state of mind before the invasion?

Sgt. Massey: I was like every other troop. My president told me they got weapons of mass destruction, that Saddam threatened the free world, that he had all this might and could reach us anywhere. I just bought into the whole thing.
Paul Rockwell: What changed you?

Sgt. Massey: The civilian casualties taking place. That was what made the difference. That was when I changed.

Paul Rockwell: Did the revelations that the government fabricated the evidence for war affect the troops?

Sgt. Massey: Yes. I killed innocent people for our government. For what? What did I do? Where is the good coming out of it? I feel like I've had a hand in some sort of evil lie at the hands of our government. I just feel embarrassed, ashamed about it.

Showdown with the Brass
Paul Rockwell: I understand that all the incidents -- killing civilians at checkpoints, itchy fingers at the rally -- weigh on you. What happened with your commanding officers? How did you deal with them?

Sgt. Massey: There was an incident. It was right after the fall of Baghdad, when we went back down South. On the outskirts of Karbala, we had a morning meeting on the battle plan. I was not in a good mindset. All these things were going through my head -- about what we were doing over there. About some of the things my troops were asking.

I was holding it all inside. My lieutenant and I got into a conversation. The conversation was striking me wrong. And I lashed out. I looked at him and told him: 'You know, I honestly feel that what we're doing is wrong over here. We're committing genocide.

' He asked me something and I said that with the killing of civilians and the depleted uranium we're leaving over here, we're not going to have to worry about terrorists. He didn't like that.

He got up and stormed off. And I knew right then and there that my career was over. I was talking to my commanding officer.
Paul Rockwell: What happened then?

Sgt. Massey: After I talked to the top commander, I was kind of scurried away. I was basically put on house arrest. I didn't talk to other troops, I didn't want to hurt them. I didn't want to jeopardize them.

I want to help people. I felt strongly about it. I had to say something. When I was sent back to stateside, I went in front of the regimental Sergeant Major. He's in charge of 3500-plus Marines. 'Sir,' I told him, 'I don't want your money. I don't want your benefits. What you did was wrong.' It was just a personal conviction with me. I've had an impeccable career. I chose to get out.

And you know who I blame? I blame the President of the U.S. It's not the grunt. I blame the president because he said they had weapons of mass destruction. It was a lie.

This interview first appeared in the Sacramento Bee. Paul Rockwell is a writer in the Bay Area

MALCOLM X: OXFORD UNION DEBATE

Malcom X In the United States Part 10

After leaving the Nation of Islam, Malcolm X spoke before a wide variety of audiences in the United States. He spoke at regular meetings of Muslim Mosque, Inc., and the Organization of Afro-American Unity. He was one of the most sought-after speakers on college campuses,and one of his top aides later wrote that he "welcomed every opportunity to speak to college students." Malcolm X also spoke before political groups such as the Militant Labor Forum.

Tensions increased between Malcolm X and the Nation of Islam. As early as February 1964, a member of Temple Number Seven was given orders by the Nation of Islam to wire explosives to Malcolm X's car. On March 20, 1964, Life published a photograph of Malcolm X holding an M1Carbine and peering out a window. The photo was intended to illustrate his determination to defend himself and his family against the death threats he was receiving.

The Nation of Islam and its leaders began making threats against Malcolm X both in private and in public. On March 23, 1964, Elijah Muhammad told Boston minister Louis X (later known as Louis Farrakhan) that hypocrites like Malcolm should have "their heads cut off." The April 10 edition of Muhammad Speaks featured a cartoon in which his severed head was shown bouncing. On July 9, John Ali, a top aide to Muhammad, answered a question about Malcolm X by saying that "anyone who opposes the Honorable Elijah Muhammad puts their life in jeopardy."

The December 4 issue of Muhammad Speaks included an article by Louis X that railed against Malcolm X and said that "such a man as Malcolm is worthy of death." Some threats were made anonymously During the month of June 1964, FBI surveillance recorded two such threats. On June 8, a man called Malcolm X's home and told Betty Shabazz to "tell him he's as good as dead." On June 12, an FBI informant reported getting an anonymous telephone call from somebody who said "Malcolm X is going to be bumped off."

In June 1964, the Nation of Islam sued to reclaim Malcolm X's residence in Queens, New York, which they claimed to own. The suit was successful, and Malcolm X was ordered to vacate. On February 14, 1965, the night before a scheduled hearing to postpone the eviction date, the house burned to the ground. Malcolm X and his family survived. No one was charged with any crime.

Allah is testing us different part will not give up anything for Allah swa, Alhamdulillah!

Mash Allah! Allahu Akbar! I have to put up this article from sister Zayna. And I ask you to everyone who blogs to do so. For sister Zayna wants to share his story and spread it. So Inshallah we can all help her do it. Just copy it and set up Inshallah. This Sister in Islam is a really good example for us all Muslims, and m'a Allah reward her Jennah, for her saber and iman in her trials in from Allah swa!

Ameen!

Meddie.

Her story:

Dear brothers & sisters in Islam.

My journey to Islam was full of Love, Pain, Suffering, & Wisdom. I came from a life where I had everything handed down to me. Driving luxury cars, Wealth, Modeling, Attending the best schools, & living a life where everything was given to me in my hands. My entire life changed in the matter of a blink of an eye when I learned of this new Religion “ISLAM” As my family had a personal relationship with the Vatican/Pope John Benedict lll & the Roman Empire, I truly was stuck between living a So called luxury lifestyle or my Entire family were to disown me because of this new Religion that occurred to me.

So at the age of 17 and about to be an early graduate to attend a Cosmetology/School of Fashion in California, My family made me choose whether to stay with them and live my dreams of being a cosmetologist/Model/Famous fashion Designer or pursue my ambition of being a Muslim. I had in one hand A life of everything a person could dream of, Or life of Abandonment/Shamefulness/& Homelessness.

All this was solely depended on my choice to Staying Christian/Roman Catholic or Attaining my entire focus towards learning about Islam. I couldn’t believe it that my entire life changed in one night.

I never could have ever imagined that instead of getting up and going to school the next day, I was headed at the age of 17 to a bus stop with all my savings and a few clothes in my backpack for the sole purpose of committing to another Religion. My life began as a homeless kid in the Downtown Saint Paul Area where I was living in and out of my friends Cars/Apartments/Rooms whatever was available for Seven months.

I really had no-one to turn to as I promised to not ruin My grandfathers close relationship with the Vatican and my Family name. I was then found by a Sister in the community who introduced me to a Somalian family who took me in as I had nowhere else to go. I was kind of pressured into becoming a Muslim at the time because I had no-where to go and the family didn’t really feel comfortable with a non-Muslim at the time living in their home.

So I was at my breaking point and never wanted to commit to a lifestyle that didn’t have any meaning to me what so ever, though it was rather a comfortable life of luxury/wealth/ you name it or truly giving up everything to be a Muslim. So I did it and left everything behind me and decided to become a Muslim August 29th of 2004 at the Inver Grove Islamic School with Sheikh Hussein and a few friends as my witness at a yearly convention to prepare for Ramadan.

My life changed dramatically within a matter of weeks as right after I thought I could start over, I was diagnosed with a really bad case of Nephritic Lupus and a rare blood clotting deficiency called Factor Five Leiden Disorder. I was so confused at the time because I had come from a life where I was perfectly healthy, Good looks, and plenty of money to keep me satisfied.

I couldn’t decide whether to believe my Family that this was a punishment from God for abandoning the Catholic Church or My First real test from Allah/God. I took in a deep a breath and looked up into the ceiling at the doctor’s office and said to God, “If I’m living for something, let it be that It’s a Muslim for my heart no-longer belongs to Catholicism” I made my decision right then and there when

I felt a huge burst of cold air that brush against my body and the agony I felt from the pain of my joints which have immensely swelled over night. Ok Allah it’s just me and you and I submit myself entirely to your Religion and will leave everything behind me as I have nothing else to live for. I have been through ups and downs and bumpy corners throughout my journey to Islam as it has impacted my life in ways I couldn’t imagine.

The loss of all my hair, physical appearance, and ability to attain a normal life was all taken away from me in the blink of an eye. I ended up alone in a low income apartment practically dying of pain and agony all by myself with no family or anyone to help me fight this disease. I was so alone and depressed with only the healing of listening to the Quran and praying that God had a plan for me if not in this life but the Hear after. I was surviving off of $200.00 in cash assistance and Medicaid to pay for my medical bills for quite a long time.

So I am here today and fighting with everything I got to show everyone that Islam is the only thing that makes a believer a believer of God and that this life is nothing because I’m a walking, breathing, living proof that having a luxury lifestyle is nothing if you don’t have faith in Allah and Islam. I pray that I can accomplish fighting this disease as it could potentionally kill me any day now and come out to the public and let my story be widely renowned.

I really would love to publish my novel about coming to Islam as I feel it could change the many lives of those who are truly lost and confused about their own beliefs and choice makings in life. I cannot imagine myself living or dying a non Muslim. I just want to see the community and let my story be known as I feel it could change many lives. It’s the month of Ramadan and we all need to come together and fight for the truth to come out about our religion and show everyone the real picture of Islam. Please forward this to all the Muslims you know and pray for a miracle!!!!!

I really would love to meet the Twin City Muslim community inshallah as it gives me hope which the doctors here at Regions are not giving me. Everything comes from allah SWT and I will not forgot any of those who came to see me/thought of me/ and or prayed for me to recover.

I have no one but Allah and when and if I leave this hospital bed I want everyone to know that I gave up and fought with everything I had for Islam and wanted only people to see the real truth about Islam. Thankyou to everyone who stood by my side, Allah will indeed reward you all inshallah.

Ramadan Kareem

Your sister in Islam Zayna